In my time on the boards and my personal experience, it seems to me that those who really bought into what the org taught, in other words, tried to be a "good little jw", have a harder time when they discover it's all crap as compared to those who perhaps were "fringe" jw's or those who were living a "double life" or had doubts for a while.
My ex and I left the org at the same time. He had been having doubts for a while and had been perusing jwd four years before he left. He also had a more "normal" time as a teenager as he lived a "double life". I, on the other hand, did the good little jw thing and found it to be an utter disillusioning experience when the house of cards fell apart.
What do you think? Does it matter how tied in you were to the beliefs? Did it affect the level of healing you needed on leaving?
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Does it matter whether you bought into it?
by tall penguin inin my time on the boards and my personal experience, it seems to me that those who really bought into what the org taught, in other words, tried to be a "good little jw", have a harder time when they discover it's all crap as compared to those who perhaps were "fringe" jw's or those who were living a "double life" or had doubts for a while.
he had been having doubts for a while and had been perusing jwd four years before he left.
he also had a more "normal" time as a teenager as he lived a "double life".
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Suicide
by Nicolas ini know it's a touchy subject, but anyone here has ever thought of suicide while they were still in the organization?
it seem to me that jehovah's witnesses have a much higher rate of suicide than the rest of the population.
i contemplated suicide myself when i was struggling to get piece of my life back together after being raised as a "perfect little jw" when i was young.
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(((restrangled)))
I've thought about suicide almost daily since I was 15. As a jw, I was less inclined to follow through, as I was afraid of what jehovah would think of me. Now that there's no jehovah to live for, I find myself (oddly enough) thinking more seriously about it. I spend moments sitting outside the subway station thinking about jumping, but I don't think I have the guts. I'm too afraid I'd end up surviving. So, not everyone is miraculously cured of their depression on leaving the matrix.
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The JW experience....is the soul ever healed?...A BIG RANT.
by restrangled ini just wrote about my life between 11 and 12......i am now 48 years old.
it came back to me in huge drowning waves that i cannot describe.
the anger, depression, humiliation..... do any of us ever get to recover totally?
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I hear ya! Not sure the soul ever heals. It's been two years since I'm out and I'm still mindf**ked!!! Rant away my dear. You've earned it.
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My mind won't shut off !
by Maddie init is after 3am and i am sitting here on my own not being able to sleep.
this seems to happen to me quite often lately and my head is like a washing machine - going round and round.
i am going to see the doctor tomorrow and tell him how i am feeling.
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Hi maddie, I just wanted to give you some hugs. I'm going through much of what you described. Know that you aren't alone.
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What's Your Favorite Seinfeld Episode?
by Lloyd Braun inmy favorite all time episode is the tennis/j peterman incident where kramer is walking across the tennis court and a racquet goes flying and hits a machine and kramer gets pelleted with tennis balls.
another really good one is when newman smells kramer basting on the roof and starts seeing him as food.. .
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The Kenny Rogers Roasters episode where Jerry and Kramer switch apartments.
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Today is my 10th Anniversary and my birthday
by jwfacts inbeing a jw that had never celebrated a birthday i thought i would get around the system and get married on my birthday.
today i turn 38 and celebrate my 10th anniversary.
to top it all off, in a few days my wife and i will be having an ultrasound and finding out the sex of my first baby.
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Wow...lots to celebrate. Happy Anniversary. Happy Birthday. And congrats on the baby. Exciting times!!!
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A better way to approach therapy
by joelbear69 ini recently started my 3rd round of therapy.
the first two proved unproductive in really .
helping me deal with my problems and become .
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Not sure what kind of therapy you'll be doing, but it sounds like Cognitive Behavioral Therapy might be useful. It's based on the present and looks at your thought patterns in response to present situations. I'll be trying it out in the coming weeks. Best of luck to you.
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Has any body ever read this book "Lamb" by Christopher Moore?
by ldrnomo init's a great book if you have a sense of humor about god and christ in fact he quotes voltare in the begining.
"god is a comedian playing to an audience that's afraid to laugh".
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Great book. One of my faves.
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Tomorrow will be one of the PROUDEST days of my life.
by nicolaou iniv'e been posting here a long time but here's something i never shared before .
i'm still a window cleaner.
i'm not going to rant at the 'society' because they don't own my anger anymore but my work is certainly a legacy of my cult past.
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Beautiful Nicolau.
I am happy you were able to keep your family together and grow together. And that the next generation will be better off for your choices. Definitely something to be proud of.
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We've lost so much.
by shell69 inguys;.
i normally come on here, and am strong and very vocal in me distain for the borg and all the things it entailed.
just feeling a bit sad for myself tonight and wanted to tell my friends.. my birthday was yesterday.
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(((Auntie Twinkle)))
Of all the people I left behind in the org, it is the children I miss the most. I too was Auntie to a number of kids and am not sure I'll ever see any of them again. It hurts. Beyond words.
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